This was a beautifull tribute, I just wanted to tell you you are not alone my name is Sandra & I recently lost my husband so I know what you are going through & yes it is sheer hell,I hope in time like myself that you find some sort of peace even though it will be difficult we know deep down that they will not want us to grieve forever, by the sound of things you like myself have a good family to help you through. It has been a pleasure to be able to see what other people have done before doing something like this myself it really has helped me so I would like to say Thank you for letting me read your story. from Sandra Jenks re; rip-mally-jenks@hotmail.com