I lot has happened since my last entry. I've had tonsil surgery, I've had neck surgery, I've had all of my teeth taken out and am learning to live with dentures, I have started radiation treatment on my neck and I'm taking physical therapy for my shoulder. It might sound like a lot, and sometimes it distracts me for a while, but I ultimately wind up right back where I started. I miss Debbie so bad that it eclipses anything and everything else that happens in my life. I hate being alive. I still want so badly to be with her, even at the cost of my so called life.